I want to be at home

Something happened Sunday. Just sitting in a peaceful church, worshipping Jesus has nourished me more than I imagined. For the first time in a very long time, I can't get enough of Jesus!!! I think my dry bones may be coming back to life!!!!  I want to be at home, I want to be sitting at Jesus' feet!

This song express my heart.
The more I seek you (Kari Jobe)

The more I seek you,
The more I find you
The more I find you, the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

Back in the saddle

Got real sick last week. Not sure what it was but the loss of 6 lbs in one day was OK. Praisin Jesus I have not gained them back. Time to take a look at eating healthier.

I finished going through every room, closet, drawer, cabinet, etc in the house. A friend of mine needs money and is planning a garage sale. What a great motivator for me to get rid of clutter. I got rid of chairs and other pieces of furniture not in use not to mention sewing stuff, picture frames, office supplies, purses, etc. I think the saying is true that our clutter controls us.

Mom even went through and cleaned out some of her stuff. YEAH!!!

Still have way more books than needed but I have now scaled back to buying no more than 5 books a month. The one exception is the books I buy for the mentally challenged couple in the nursing home. I buy the books they like and send them a box every other month.

With cooler temps hopefully coming soon, I want to finish sanding and staining the chairs I got for the dining room. A friend is going to cut the wood seats for me. Covering those will will easy. Once I get those done and out of the storage room, I will have space to work on other projects, like a nightstand.

I want to rearrange the office part of my bedroom so I can enjoy my room more and not feel so closed in when I am at the computer.

I went to church with Rhonda. It was so good to go to church where there was just praisin Jesus and learning more about Him. Our church has been in such turmoil but with me leading Character Makeover, I chose not to leave as so many have. So sad to see power issues tear God's church apart.
I am still praying about whether to stay or go. This is the second departure of indiviuals in less than a year.

Guess I best get back to work. Gene is in all week so will have plenty to do.

I do appreciate all of y'alls prayers.

Calmer now

I do believe I got carried away on that last post. Call it emotional overload. Coming off that trial and then someone is hurting my child. Yes, he is in his 30,s but Waylon is my one and only and someone is messing with him. I greatly dislike the emotional roller coasters fueled by someone's conning manipulations. Too much drama, too many people getting hurt.

I am no longer allowed to be with Roo

A couple of weeks ago, mom and I were going to surprise Waylon by taking him to Austin to buy him some new work shoes. Mom and I talked about it, that she would take him on Wednesday morning, which would allow Kristina to sleep after getting off work.

Because we did not her permission, she said Waylon and Roo could not go. Because we do not respect her, she says I can no longer take care of Roo.

Too much drama. I hope she dies.

Jury Duty is over...

the visions are not. Let me tell you, jury duty is not fun,especially when it involves children. Need some sleep but wake up to visions from the trial running through my head.

Jury Duty

I am on Jury Duty this week. It is so hot in there, you would think I would have sweated off a few pounds. Last night we did not get out of there until after 7PM. I got home about 10PM after going to work, tending to what I could and then doing Davey's payroll.

Something happened at our church that is very hurtful. It reminds me of why I left the last church. I feel I must find another place to worship. I normally would not leave just yet as I have not finished facilitating the Character Makeover study but believe I can no longer go through those church doors.

My friend Rhonda has found a church she loves so think I will give it a try on Sunday. Even mom says she will not be going back.

Why can't we just love Jesus and do what he directs? Why must man muck things up with their rules? JUST GIVE ME JESUS!!!!

Good intentions

I intend to write in my blog or post something on Facebook but weeks go by and my good intentions are just that.

Work has taken me by storm to the point of even bringing it home in the evenings so not only do I have Davey's paperwork at night, I have office work. It is not Gene's fault and he would much prefer I did not bring work home but you can't help when you get the reports you need for his presentations and boy, has he had the presentations to do.

Every other weekend I watch Roo so Kristina and Waylon can work. Time with Roo is an answer to prayer, however, I do not get much done while he is awake, which is all day. Yesterday, he did take three 15 minutes naps and that was in my arms. As soon as I laid him down, he was awake and ready to play. I am only getting to blog now as he did not go to sleep until after midnight so right now, he is slightly stirring, getting ready for a new day.

One weekend a month I work at Davey's. That leaves one weekend to garage sale and accomplish things on my me-do list. My me-do list has not had anything scratched off it in months. My weaving loom is still waiting to be put together after 2 years ( I need help getting it done). Dust is the doilies on everything I own. So unlike me not to dust weekly or at least everyother week but it has been months.

I can check my email and facebook at work so that when I get home, I can do more office work.

I am grateful for my work and I love having Roo, I just miss my me time, some alone time to putter and do. Alone time, is almost gone for good (will get some at Julie's, YEAH) but mom has no plans for anymore trips. My boss gave me off the day after July 4th as long as I checked emails from home. Mom was doing volunteer work for 8 hours. Even that got cut short so I only had a couple of hours for myself. I had just started puttering when here she comes.

Mom tore the ligaments in her foot so I now am having to do more yard work in the evenings until it heals, which it won't because she won't stay off of it. This morning I told her if she doesn't stay off of it, she will have to go someplace until it heals as I can't take care of her, while I work.

Things are better at home with mom but I miss alone time, in my home, doing the things I want to do without interference. She seems to think I want her here all the time when I am home, even though, I have made it plain I need her gone once in awhile. Like me, she is a homebody and let's face it, there is not much to do in Marble Falls that would kill 8 hours of time.

I miss my friends and doing things with them but on my one weekend, I need to tend to things at my house.

I know this may sound like I am complaining but I consider it a time of mourning, a part of my grieving the loss of my life that I enjoyed.